Honest question because the "growth" and "waking up" aspect very often comes up: how do you know you have "grown" and not just got lost in meaningless meandering and your drug-induced perception made you think you reached a "higher level"?
I don't attribute my personal growth to drugs. I attribute it to years of self-examination and introspection. It is hard work and the difficult acceptance of my flaws. Drugs did however provide the occasional signposts to help me along the way.
Most people are blind to their own failings. A new perspective due to a sudden insight can change your life; I think some drugs allow for an increase in the frequency of those insights.
I don't think I have reached a higher level necessarily, but I used to be insecure, depressed, negative, timid, lazy, and immature just to start. Now I am confident, assertive, positive, and strong-willed. I am a totally different person. I'm definitely not perfect, but I'm not done. I have many flaws, and I'll find many more. This is a lifelong process.
That sounds like quite an amazing change, wow and congratulations! I always wanted to try certain substances but I am worried about side effects and no idea where to find a safe setting, let alone legal implications. I wouldn't even know where to begin.
Honest question because the "growth" and "waking up" aspect very often comes up: how do you know you have "grown" and not just got lost in meaningless meandering and your drug-induced perception made you think you reached a "higher level"?