These two things are different, most suicide is impulsive - this has a waiting period. So to the people who want to kill themselves because their partner broke up with them, etc, have some time to cool off - though this isnt really for those cases and they are still likely to jump and/or take their family down with them.
And is it always regret or maybe shame that is hard to tell the difference or say aloud? I dont regret my attempt 20+ years ago, but it made me feel so much worse about myself for a long time because I could not handle the shame of not even being able to do that one thing right.
I am now an advocate for a humane way to end one’s life, I was lucky in that I did not maim or disable myself like other people who fail in their attempt. This should be open to anyone, because there are people who are just done or just dont want to be here.
I still dont want to be here and I have done the self love/growth introspective work, have friends, hobbies and live comfortably by western standards. Each year has just strengthen my resolve to be able to end my life on my terms and in a humane way and in the country I love. The thought of failure a second time w/ possible disability/disfigurement is not something I want, or cant, add on to being here - as strange as it sounds, it would destroy me like the first failure almost did. I strongly hope to be able to do it in my own country but I have a timeline and, if I am still around at that time, I have not ruled out being a “suicide tourist” even though I would really prefer to go out in a world that wasn’t obsessed with controlling other peoples bodily autonomy
And is it always regret or maybe shame that is hard to tell the difference or say aloud? I dont regret my attempt 20+ years ago, but it made me feel so much worse about myself for a long time because I could not handle the shame of not even being able to do that one thing right.
I am now an advocate for a humane way to end one’s life, I was lucky in that I did not maim or disable myself like other people who fail in their attempt. This should be open to anyone, because there are people who are just done or just dont want to be here.
I still dont want to be here and I have done the self love/growth introspective work, have friends, hobbies and live comfortably by western standards. Each year has just strengthen my resolve to be able to end my life on my terms and in a humane way and in the country I love. The thought of failure a second time w/ possible disability/disfigurement is not something I want, or cant, add on to being here - as strange as it sounds, it would destroy me like the first failure almost did. I strongly hope to be able to do it in my own country but I have a timeline and, if I am still around at that time, I have not ruled out being a “suicide tourist” even though I would really prefer to go out in a world that wasn’t obsessed with controlling other peoples bodily autonomy