I'd probably have done similar if I hadn't discovered legit spiritual practices when I was younger. Focussing on materialism, wealth, status, etc. just doesn't bring happiness.

I think Buddhism nailed the causes of unhappiness and provides a way out without needing to believe in fairies. I'd honestly be lost without it.

Maybe you're one of those people who's more aware of what the Buddha called the 3 characteristics like I am. Worth googling it at least.